Saturday, July 25, 2009

Sober

"Sober"

I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
'Cos I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

Ah the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oh, I am finding
That's not the way I want my story to end

I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're my protection
How do I feel this good sober?

I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
I won't remember, save your breath, 'cos what's the use?

Ah, the night is calling?
And it whispers to me softly come and play
Ah, I am falling
And If I let myself go I'm the only one to blame

I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?

I'm coming down, coming down, coming down
Spinning 'round, spinning 'round, spinning 'round
Looking for myself - SOBER [x2]

When it's good, then it's good, it's so good till it goes bad
Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again
Broken down in agony just tryna find a friend

Oh Oh

I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober

Oh Oh

I'm safe
Up High
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?

Will I ever feel this good sober?
Tell me, No no no no no pain
How do i feel this good sober?

Friday, July 24, 2009

21st Century Breakdown

Omg Omg I absolutely love this album. I've listened to it so much that my zune gave me a bronze power listener badge lol. I've always like green day but couldn't really get into there older albums except for American Idiot. But I love this album so much!!!!

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This past week and a half i think since I last posted has been crazy as usual. I guess adams cousin came back/moved back to yak sometime but i finally met him drove him to tri cities like 4 times and am now trying to find a way to get him to leave me alone. I've been working and trying to keep up on school. But thats basically all thats new. ^^

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Woot!!!!

This is the last week of one of my online classes, I can't believe its already been 6 weeks. I've been able to close front counter so that means more hours, and I finally made up my mind and am gonna try to move back to tri cities in a couple of months. So I'm saving up for that along with my 21'st birthday!!!!! Woot I can't wait! Brandon so far has been out of the picture last I heard he was back in yak but has yet to actually make contact with me lol. So basically my lifes been up lately which is an awsome thing!!! Back to update later!!!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

21 Guns

21 Guns

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside,you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last, you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...

Did you try to live on your own?
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand to close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died,you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...

Thursday, June 18, 2009

too much drama

wow ive been stressed lately and as a result ive been overloading brandon with me venting. But theres just way too much drama and I need to learn to not care what people think so much, but everyones been jumping down my throat since i got back with brandon and im just the ex girlfriend to his friends so he's been going out and having fun and ive been stuck here with homework blah! works still pissing me off and my mom just volunteered me to feed all there animals while there gone camping. So everyones been having fun without me or just having fun and im not. I like this blog for venting ^^

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Wow

Last time I posted I was still in tri cities. This past week has been hectic and insane. I was in tri cities then Brandons dad asked him to help him and his gf move to spokane, so I was origionally going to just head back to yak, but then decided since I knew he was very tired that I would go with them as well since I have my license. Stayed up till lik 9 or 10 in the morning, worked with him and his dad that morning and then headed back to tri cities the next day. I loved spokane its an awsome and beautiful city. I so wanna move there later. Then brandon decided to come with me back to yak to help me move so tables and put our new one in there. Ended up getting a job interview and might possibably have a job over here soon ^^. I'm so excited for that b/c that means he'll live here and we could get a place together later!!!! Then I started school and tried to work on it during all this crazyness but alas I just finished up my last few assignments for the first week and now gonna move on to the second week later today, its just been so crazy lately I have to go get him from tri cities in the morning somehow find time to work on school, possibably go feed moms animals if they went camping and work too. Ahhhhh where am I gonna find the time =( idk but I'll try to find it. anywayz later to all of you till I post again when My lifes less crazy or when I have time to lol. bye bye everyone.